Chad and I have decided to head to bama after he gets up this afternoon!
I have also decided to do a give away! There will be three prizes..
1 will be a jewelry box
1 will be a miscellaneous box
1 will be a random box with lots of different goodies.
Random box is big prize
Jewelry second prize
Miscellaneous third prize
What do you have to do???
Like my post on Facebook get three points.
Join my blog get three points
Comment on my blog get 2 points
That's it.....nothing too incredibly complicated. IF you try to join my blog or comment and have problems than comment on my Facebook wall and let me know. I will be happy to tell you how to do it.
Contest starts today and goes through Sunday night! Sooooooo....Get ready, Get set and GO!
love you all,
Francine
Thursday, February 7, 2013
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Just sharing!
Good evening everyone! I hope you have a wonderful day today! I will be honest when I say I have literally not done much of anything today... I spend about half the day on the couch with my other half watching movies. I cherish those times when we get to do that together! I will stop anything I am doing to take time out to spend with that man. I cherish every second because I know tomorrow is never promised.
Tonight I have been thinking about how I sometimes seem to "give up to easy" I don't think I really know why I just always give up on myself. So I am asking God to help me to not allow that to happen anymore. I am getting a calendar and marking off 21 days for each thing I want to change... most people say it usually takes about 21 days to break a habit. I have A LOT of BAD habits to break. Just like loosing weight I am not getting any younger and if I want to live my life to it's fullest I have to start living and quit just dreaming about the day when......because the day" when" may never come UNLESS I make it.
NO it is not easy.... please know I am struggling just like you but I am also trying really hard to focus on not as much the struggle as the accomplishments. It's the only way I can do this. I have to have the right frame of mind in order for this to work. I am the only one standing in my way of making my dreams happen so it is literally NOW or NEVER!
I want you to be successful to in all that you are trying to do. I know you have it in you to accomplish whatever your goals for this year are!! I am praying for you to be all that you can be this year!
I also have another confession to make it's not really one I am proud of but I am going to make it anyway. My heart was very hurt and broken by several people in my past who claimed they were "Christians" and who have purposely deceived and hurt me. They still to this day think they have done nothing wrong but I was so hurt that I walked away from church.. People I am a church goer I always have been. I have always loved it... worshiping GOD is something I have always loved doing. For almost 2 years I have not walked in a church but I realize now that blaming GOD for what they did to me was very wrong and that I have no right to turn my back on God because of something HUMANS who are NOT perfect did. I am working on looking at church's to find a good match for chad and I and praying that the lord will open the door to where we can go and be accepted and loved. Until than I worship GOD in my home and trust that the door that needs to be opened will be when the time is right and GOD is ready for it to be.
So there you go... huge stumbling block and not something I am proud of !
So much in the past brought FEAR to my life. I never really backed down just found another way to make it work. Now I just want to accept it is what it is and move forward.. The PAST is just that in the past and the people in that part of my life need to stay there I have no room for that in the " here and now" or the future. I won't ever allow another person to pull me from God again. EVER!
Tomorrow morning I will start the day working out and I will probably pop in and let you know how it goes and I will also be applying for jobs as well because I am not happy where I am. So please keep me in prayer. There are a lot of changes being made a lot of things I have to work through but I know with GOD ALL things are possible! I have faith he WILL carry me through.
Love to you all,
Francine
Tonight I have been thinking about how I sometimes seem to "give up to easy" I don't think I really know why I just always give up on myself. So I am asking God to help me to not allow that to happen anymore. I am getting a calendar and marking off 21 days for each thing I want to change... most people say it usually takes about 21 days to break a habit. I have A LOT of BAD habits to break. Just like loosing weight I am not getting any younger and if I want to live my life to it's fullest I have to start living and quit just dreaming about the day when......because the day" when" may never come UNLESS I make it.
NO it is not easy.... please know I am struggling just like you but I am also trying really hard to focus on not as much the struggle as the accomplishments. It's the only way I can do this. I have to have the right frame of mind in order for this to work. I am the only one standing in my way of making my dreams happen so it is literally NOW or NEVER!
I want you to be successful to in all that you are trying to do. I know you have it in you to accomplish whatever your goals for this year are!! I am praying for you to be all that you can be this year!
I also have another confession to make it's not really one I am proud of but I am going to make it anyway. My heart was very hurt and broken by several people in my past who claimed they were "Christians" and who have purposely deceived and hurt me. They still to this day think they have done nothing wrong but I was so hurt that I walked away from church.. People I am a church goer I always have been. I have always loved it... worshiping GOD is something I have always loved doing. For almost 2 years I have not walked in a church but I realize now that blaming GOD for what they did to me was very wrong and that I have no right to turn my back on God because of something HUMANS who are NOT perfect did. I am working on looking at church's to find a good match for chad and I and praying that the lord will open the door to where we can go and be accepted and loved. Until than I worship GOD in my home and trust that the door that needs to be opened will be when the time is right and GOD is ready for it to be.
So there you go... huge stumbling block and not something I am proud of !
So much in the past brought FEAR to my life. I never really backed down just found another way to make it work. Now I just want to accept it is what it is and move forward.. The PAST is just that in the past and the people in that part of my life need to stay there I have no room for that in the " here and now" or the future. I won't ever allow another person to pull me from God again. EVER!
Tomorrow morning I will start the day working out and I will probably pop in and let you know how it goes and I will also be applying for jobs as well because I am not happy where I am. So please keep me in prayer. There are a lot of changes being made a lot of things I have to work through but I know with GOD ALL things are possible! I have faith he WILL carry me through.
Love to you all,
Francine
Monday, February 4, 2013
Hey y'all! I hope this finds everyone doing really good! I wanted to write about something that has just been pushing at my heart today and I am praying that IF somebody needed to read this for whatever reason that it will help them.
There are times when I get really down and come down super hard on myself and lately it has been every single day. I am not happy about it but it is what it is. I have become really really bad at comparing myself to others. This person has lost more weight than me, this person is prettier than me, smarter than me, has a better job,,, you get the picture. Today was no different from any other ...... I have to realize that I do not have to compare myself to anyone else.. I am on a journey and GOD NEVER promised that this journey would be easy OR that it would happen fast he did promise he would walk with me every step of the way IF i would do as he told me too and IF I would trust him. I am not perfect.. I have joked about this before but really I am not. So I may fail and I may even fall FLAT ON MY FACE but that's OK because GOD reaches down in his wonderful loving way and picks me up and makes things right. Where would I be without GOD to pick me up when I mess up? So while sitting here getting close to work ending God reminded me of something and it just was so strong and powerful I felt I needed to share it with all of you!
So here it goes:
When we are facing hardships, trials or things in our life that just seem to be taking forever to get resolved we need to remember to not rush them and to not try and find a faster or easier way to do it. TRUST GOD maybe there is a reason he wants you to do it the hard way,,,perhaps he wants to give you a testimony or have you be an example for someone but when we step in and remove that from him we loose all that and we ultimately tell him that we think we know better and folks let's just be honest we so don't know better.
I have been so busy hating that this process is slow and I hate the way I look that I have failed to see all the positives that could come out of this. An awesome testimony I can share with others, the ability to let GOD shine through me, education I will learn and new friendships I will gain through this journey of weight loss. Yes I will still have my days but I am working hard to not compare myself to anyone...how can I after all I am ME , Pamela Francine Howell created by GOD for HIS PURPOSE how dare I think I have the right to take what he gave me out of his hands!
I encourage you whatever battle you are fighting or whatever you are trying to change.. Put it in God's hands and trust him. I know I promise I do know it will not be easy but GOD DOES KNOW BEST!
love you all,
Francine
There are times when I get really down and come down super hard on myself and lately it has been every single day. I am not happy about it but it is what it is. I have become really really bad at comparing myself to others. This person has lost more weight than me, this person is prettier than me, smarter than me, has a better job,,, you get the picture. Today was no different from any other ...... I have to realize that I do not have to compare myself to anyone else.. I am on a journey and GOD NEVER promised that this journey would be easy OR that it would happen fast he did promise he would walk with me every step of the way IF i would do as he told me too and IF I would trust him. I am not perfect.. I have joked about this before but really I am not. So I may fail and I may even fall FLAT ON MY FACE but that's OK because GOD reaches down in his wonderful loving way and picks me up and makes things right. Where would I be without GOD to pick me up when I mess up? So while sitting here getting close to work ending God reminded me of something and it just was so strong and powerful I felt I needed to share it with all of you!
So here it goes:
When we are facing hardships, trials or things in our life that just seem to be taking forever to get resolved we need to remember to not rush them and to not try and find a faster or easier way to do it. TRUST GOD maybe there is a reason he wants you to do it the hard way,,,perhaps he wants to give you a testimony or have you be an example for someone but when we step in and remove that from him we loose all that and we ultimately tell him that we think we know better and folks let's just be honest we so don't know better.
I have been so busy hating that this process is slow and I hate the way I look that I have failed to see all the positives that could come out of this. An awesome testimony I can share with others, the ability to let GOD shine through me, education I will learn and new friendships I will gain through this journey of weight loss. Yes I will still have my days but I am working hard to not compare myself to anyone...how can I after all I am ME , Pamela Francine Howell created by GOD for HIS PURPOSE how dare I think I have the right to take what he gave me out of his hands!
I encourage you whatever battle you are fighting or whatever you are trying to change.. Put it in God's hands and trust him. I know I promise I do know it will not be easy but GOD DOES KNOW BEST!
love you all,
Francine
Thursday, January 24, 2013
Some Christmas pictures and Thursday happenings!
A while back when it was Christmas I meant to show you some pictures of my presents that I got and I just forgot soooooo here you go!
My Keurig tea/coffee pot LOVE LOVE LOVE!
My PRIZE the I have dreamed of this forever gift. My beautiful RED Kitchen Aid mixer! I cried yall! There were tears!
3 pre-seasoned iron skillets! LOVE!
Today I went to the grocery store to get the next week's worth of groceries... got to say I like shopping for 7 days at a time versus two weeks. Anyway wanted to show you how I do some things to help cut down on time in the week. First of all I have a menu that I plan so I know already in advance what we will be having for dinner every night and what is available for lunch and breakfast if wanted. I want to get in practice so when we have children this will just be routine for me.
I also chop all my vegtables up like my peppers, strawberries, and ect..... that way I can grab and go. I always buy two roasted chickens and de-bone them for quick recipes or soups through out the week.
I buy spinach raw and organic half and half mix salad which has arugula, spinach, red lettuce and a few other kinds in it. This is really good. I just slip it into a zip lock back and as I close I squeeze all the air out of the bag. It helps the lettuce last longer.
Tonight for dinner we had chicken burgers and baked sweet potato fries. Recipe is below the picture but man they were good! Excellent tast and trust me you won't miss the beef! Try them once before you decide!
1 pack of ground chicken
seasonings(salt,pepper, soul seasoning, red pepper flakes, garlic power and onion power)
***use as much of the seasoning or as little all up to you****
2 sweet red bell peppers either in jar or fresh chopped little
1 garlic cloves chopped fine
1 egg
1/4 cup panko seasoning i use whole wheat
Mix all this together NOTE it will be loose and sticky so don't be alarmed. Be sure to add the egg and panko to this mixture as well!
Form your patties and wrap in tin foil and put in freezer for about 20 mint so that get just a little firm.
Take out of freezer and pan fry or bake. I pan fry mine with a little olive oil. Till done but still juicy and tender.
We add spinach, tomato's and thin slice of mozzarella cheese as well as light may, mustard and a little ketchup.
Whole wheat bun.
We usually do all sweet potatoes bake fries but we only had one sweet potatoes so i did it with 2 red potatos as well. Everything on my plate there is around 10 pts for all of it!
Now on to something else I did my workout for the first time tonight and I was excited to get through it! Little baby steps folks little baby steps. I hope that you are all having a great week and looking forward to a good weekend. Looks like we may be getting some freezing rain tonight. Curious to see what actually happens.
Much love to you all!
Francine
Hey Y'all! How's it going??? Everybody had a pretty good week??? Did you exercise and eat healthy? Just checking on ya! Yesterday and today were my day's off.. yeah I know my work schedule stinks! Just trusting God will open another door soon and just thankful for right now I have a job! So yesterday I was really excited because typically when I wake up I am sluggish and tired and have 0 energy! Yesterday I woke up and I had some energy. I cleaned my whole house and it felt great! I was just go go go all day long. It has been a long time since I did that! Last night I made Shrimp Quesadillas ww points of 10 for two with 2 tbl of sour cream and salsa.. they were delish.
I have been asked for the recipe so here it is:
Shrimp Quesadillas:
4 med whole wheat flour tortillas
3/4 lbs of shrimp deveined ( i buy the frozen ones at Walmart for like $5.00)
2 cups of spinach (raw)
2 cloves of garlic minced
1/2 onion chopped
mozzarella cheese
Directions :
Take the shrimp and cut in half than put in a pan with a little E.V.O.O like a tbs let heat up a tad and than add the shrimp. With the shrimp add a pinch of salt, pepper, red pepper flakes and Cajun or soul seasoning. This can be as much or as little as you want. We like things hot so we went a little hotter you may not. Let that cook, tossing often till shrimp is done. Put into a bowl and set to the side.
Next add the garlic and onion to the pan and let cook till onion is tender and done and garlic is smelling. Than add the spinach and let cook down be sure to lower the heat as you do not want to burn the spinach.
Once that is cooked down than turn set aside.
Pull out a flour tortilla be sure to put a little spray in the pan to avoid burning or sticking than add a spoonful of shrimp and spinach mixture and a tbl of mozzarella cheese on one side. When one side is done flip to the other side till done.
You can add 2 tbs of reg sour cream and some salsa to this if you like.
10 pt for two with salsa and sour cream. ENJOY!
You will be surprised how filling it is! I loved it and chad did too!
OK that was it for last night!
Much love to you all!
Francine Howell
I have been asked for the recipe so here it is:
Shrimp Quesadillas:
4 med whole wheat flour tortillas
3/4 lbs of shrimp deveined ( i buy the frozen ones at Walmart for like $5.00)
2 cups of spinach (raw)
2 cloves of garlic minced
1/2 onion chopped
mozzarella cheese
Directions :
Take the shrimp and cut in half than put in a pan with a little E.V.O.O like a tbs let heat up a tad and than add the shrimp. With the shrimp add a pinch of salt, pepper, red pepper flakes and Cajun or soul seasoning. This can be as much or as little as you want. We like things hot so we went a little hotter you may not. Let that cook, tossing often till shrimp is done. Put into a bowl and set to the side.
Next add the garlic and onion to the pan and let cook till onion is tender and done and garlic is smelling. Than add the spinach and let cook down be sure to lower the heat as you do not want to burn the spinach.
Once that is cooked down than turn set aside.
Pull out a flour tortilla be sure to put a little spray in the pan to avoid burning or sticking than add a spoonful of shrimp and spinach mixture and a tbl of mozzarella cheese on one side. When one side is done flip to the other side till done.
You can add 2 tbs of reg sour cream and some salsa to this if you like.
10 pt for two with salsa and sour cream. ENJOY!
You will be surprised how filling it is! I loved it and chad did too!
OK that was it for last night!
Much love to you all!
Francine Howell
Monday, January 21, 2013
I am currently sitting in my office looking around thinking to myself there is A LOT of stuff that I need to do. Have you ever felt like you new what you wanted to do but you just weren't sure how to do it? Or is that just me...I am seriously hoping not! Anyway I had a chat/phone call discussion with my cool cuz Sharon and I might add one of my dearest friends about "depression and feeling over whelmed" we are both currently dealing with a lot of things in our lives and at a phase where we feel like we just aren't happy with the way everything is. Yes i do realize that change takes time I just did a post on that but that does not mean that I jump up and down and get all excited about feeling uncomfortable it just means that I am trying really hard to deal with this the best way I can BUT I still get times of frustration. Anyway another dear friend of mine sent me some reference verses and I thought I would share them here with all of you in case you amazing people ever have down times or need a word to lift you up. So here we go.
Deuteronomy 31:8- The lord himself will go before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.
Deuteronomy 33:27- The eternal God is your refuse; and underneath are the everlasting arms.
Ecclesiastes 9:4- Anyone who is among the living has hope.
Psalm 62:5- Find rest o my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him.
Proverbs 12:25- Anxiety in a mans heart weighs it down (depression), but a good word cheers it up.
Just a few of the verses shared with me.. there are more and if you would like those let me know and I will be happy to email all of them to you. It would be my pleasure.
The fact is that as Christian Women we struggle daily to live up to what we think we should be, what our other half thinks we should be, what the world thinks we should be and so on and son on. When really and truly we should only live up to what GOD thinks we should be. Yes I know , I know that is a lot easier said than done I am right there with you TRUST ME!
So my hope is that as I grow closer to the Lord this year (which is one of my New Year's Eve goals) and learn new and encouraging things that I can share them here with you all and that if you have something inspiring that you have come across or learned that you will share it with me. We are ladies learning together and growing together.
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Before I close I did want to update with my info on weight watchers thus far. I started on it and have been actively doing it for about a week and thus far have lost around 10 lbs. NOT bad ! I am thinking a lot of this is probably water and fluids but hey I will take weight loss wherever I can find it. Also I am waiting on my Jillian Michael DVDs to get here so I can start them but I am going to do some basic exercises until than. I will share my exercise plan tomorrow for that. So I encourage you to continue on your healthy journey and come along with me as I learn and grow and share.
The journey is just beginning and it is going to be so much fun! I hope you come along for the ride.
The journey is just beginning and it is going to be so much fun! I hope you come along for the ride.
Much love to you all,
Francine
Sunday, January 20, 2013
It's a new week!
It is a new day and a new week! Praise the Lord for a new week!
Although I am in a place in my life where I feel God is making me uncomfortable only because he wants me to stay alert "not get to comfortable" just yet because I have to stay on top of things in order for changes to continue to happen. I fight things everyday but every day I fight and GOD and I win its one less day I have to fight that battle again. I look at my life and I am so blessed...I live in a beautiful home, I have an amazing fiance, great friends and family, I have a job which in itself is huge in this economy, and I have HOPE for a brighter future and more. GOD has given me promises for a better life ahead and I am excited about where that will lead me.
I choose to surround my self with different tools that will allow me to grow and learn as I go through this process of "loosing weight" and "growing closer to God"
Over the course of the next few days I will share some links, bible verses and more with you that you can also use if you like. I will also carry you with me through my journey and I hope you will stay and go along on the ride with me.. You are more than welcome to come!
For today I am leaving this simple thought because it is what just continues to go through my head.
IT IS NOT ABOUT ME and what I can do IT is about GOD and what HE can do THROUGH ME!
I fail to many times for it to be about me...... I need God every step of the way I can not do this alone!
much love to you all,
Francine
Although I am in a place in my life where I feel God is making me uncomfortable only because he wants me to stay alert "not get to comfortable" just yet because I have to stay on top of things in order for changes to continue to happen. I fight things everyday but every day I fight and GOD and I win its one less day I have to fight that battle again. I look at my life and I am so blessed...I live in a beautiful home, I have an amazing fiance, great friends and family, I have a job which in itself is huge in this economy, and I have HOPE for a brighter future and more. GOD has given me promises for a better life ahead and I am excited about where that will lead me.
I choose to surround my self with different tools that will allow me to grow and learn as I go through this process of "loosing weight" and "growing closer to God"
Over the course of the next few days I will share some links, bible verses and more with you that you can also use if you like. I will also carry you with me through my journey and I hope you will stay and go along on the ride with me.. You are more than welcome to come!
For today I am leaving this simple thought because it is what just continues to go through my head.
IT IS NOT ABOUT ME and what I can do IT is about GOD and what HE can do THROUGH ME!
I fail to many times for it to be about me...... I need God every step of the way I can not do this alone!
much love to you all,
Francine
In the past I have had people ask me how to comment on my blog. I wanted to explain how that works for you so that if you feel led to comment which i might add, I DO hope you do because I want to hear from all of you who are reading this blog.
So to comment on my blog you simply do the following :
1) Click the comments section.
2) write out your comment
3)click publish
4) it will ask you to probably sign in to your Google account if you have one if you don't it should give you a second option.
5) done
PLEASE if you have any problems with this let me know... I want to hear from YOU and I want you to feel free to share with me your thoughts and feelings.
I will be back in just a bit to post my "Sunday post"
Much love to you all!
Francine
So to comment on my blog you simply do the following :
1) Click the comments section.
2) write out your comment
3)click publish
4) it will ask you to probably sign in to your Google account if you have one if you don't it should give you a second option.
5) done
PLEASE if you have any problems with this let me know... I want to hear from YOU and I want you to feel free to share with me your thoughts and feelings.
I will be back in just a bit to post my "Sunday post"
Much love to you all!
Francine
Saturday, January 19, 2013
Change does not come easy....it is not something that will come without a fight and it is not something that will happen over night. Removing something from your life that has been there for almost your whole life requires fighting to remove it. It requires you putting forth all that is in you and laying all your faith in GOD'S hands that he can and will help you every step of the way....Change does not come easy BUT it DOES come!
There are so many things changing happening in my life that at times I feel like I am ok and at times I feel like I am fighting the battle of a lifetime. I don't feel that I will loose I just know I have to find a way to keep fighting to get where I so desire to be. If change does not come I will never be able to look at myself in the mirror and truly be happy and I will never be able to have that baby I so desire to have. Change is not an option for me CHANGE IS A MUST. No addiction to food of any kind is worth me loosing the opportunity to have a child. NONE!
So this year I have made some steps towards really huge changes that include the following:
1) I joined Weight Watchers (best decision i ever made)
2) I purchased the Jillian Michaels work out dvd's.
3) I am plugging into my bible more.
4) I am locking the door to my past and throwing the key away I do not have time for anyone that use to be in my life.
5) I have accepted that I am a christian but I am not perfect....and unlike many "Christians" I know of I am OK with that and prefer to NOT act like I never make a mistake. FOLKS I mess up , I fall, I fail and I let people down BUT it doesn't change the fact that I am a christian and I love God with all my heart and I can accept that I am not perfect. Please don't ever think I am !
So I have decided to share my story of what will happen and include you in my thoughts and share my ups and downs of this journey. I do hope you will join me and share with me as well and that together we can all end up happier, healthier and closer to God.
Love to you all,
Francine
There are so many things changing happening in my life that at times I feel like I am ok and at times I feel like I am fighting the battle of a lifetime. I don't feel that I will loose I just know I have to find a way to keep fighting to get where I so desire to be. If change does not come I will never be able to look at myself in the mirror and truly be happy and I will never be able to have that baby I so desire to have. Change is not an option for me CHANGE IS A MUST. No addiction to food of any kind is worth me loosing the opportunity to have a child. NONE!
So this year I have made some steps towards really huge changes that include the following:
1) I joined Weight Watchers (best decision i ever made)
2) I purchased the Jillian Michaels work out dvd's.
3) I am plugging into my bible more.
4) I am locking the door to my past and throwing the key away I do not have time for anyone that use to be in my life.
5) I have accepted that I am a christian but I am not perfect....and unlike many "Christians" I know of I am OK with that and prefer to NOT act like I never make a mistake. FOLKS I mess up , I fall, I fail and I let people down BUT it doesn't change the fact that I am a christian and I love God with all my heart and I can accept that I am not perfect. Please don't ever think I am !
So I have decided to share my story of what will happen and include you in my thoughts and share my ups and downs of this journey. I do hope you will join me and share with me as well and that together we can all end up happier, healthier and closer to God.
Love to you all,
Francine
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Catching up and my favorite blogs
I have no excuses for you other than life has just been crazy. Ending the summer, landing a new job, working on school it just was a lot for a bit there but I am better and back on track.
To catch everyone up:
1) I landed a great work at home job. I am so excited and start training soon.
2) Mr.C (that's what I am calling him now) got a new bow and a new tree stand. He is ready for hunting season.
3) I got a library card and have been reading like crazy.
Although that does not sound like much trust me it was. Just between work, school, new job stuff and etc its been crazy. Fall and winter are going to be crazy busy.
I am praying for (and have been told it is quite possible) a LOT of over time from work, I have a wedding, holidays and other things to take care of. I know Mr.C will spend a lot of time hunting which I fully support. He loves it and he works so hard he deserves the break for sure! As for me between work,school and some other projects I will be way busy but that's OK i like busy. :0)
Anyway I have no menu right now as I am working on making about 6 weeks worth of menus as I speak but I will share them once I am done. I wanted to share a few blogs with you to check out and see if you like them as much as I do.
http://www.thefamilyhomestead.com/
http://www.theviewfromfivetwo.com/
http://www.kellyskornerblog.com/
Check these out and I will be back... These are three of my favorite blogs...
Hugs and love,
Francine
To catch everyone up:
1) I landed a great work at home job. I am so excited and start training soon.
2) Mr.C (that's what I am calling him now) got a new bow and a new tree stand. He is ready for hunting season.
3) I got a library card and have been reading like crazy.
Although that does not sound like much trust me it was. Just between work, school, new job stuff and etc its been crazy. Fall and winter are going to be crazy busy.
I am praying for (and have been told it is quite possible) a LOT of over time from work, I have a wedding, holidays and other things to take care of. I know Mr.C will spend a lot of time hunting which I fully support. He loves it and he works so hard he deserves the break for sure! As for me between work,school and some other projects I will be way busy but that's OK i like busy. :0)
Anyway I have no menu right now as I am working on making about 6 weeks worth of menus as I speak but I will share them once I am done. I wanted to share a few blogs with you to check out and see if you like them as much as I do.
http://www.thefamilyhomestead.com/
http://www.theviewfromfivetwo.com/
http://www.kellyskornerblog.com/
Check these out and I will be back... These are three of my favorite blogs...
Hugs and love,
Francine
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Late night ramblings!
Hey y'all! I am back...it's 11:47pm and I guess my body is starting to feel better and suddenly the shut down my brain has been in for the past three of four days has been lifted and my mind is going 90 to nothing! Soooooo that is good and not good! I have a ton of things to do as my niece bri is coming to stay with chad and I for the rest of the week ..oh and I am currently washing clothes because my LOVING fiance informed me "I would be fired " if I didn't wash clothes tonight..SERIOUSLY!! I lie not he really said he would fire me. hahah good thing I knew he was joking. Oh and than he tells me "your not allowed to get sick anymore" really now? hmmmm let me know how that works out for ya! MEN!
So I am sitting in my office "THINKING" yes be scared be very scared! I have my emergen c packet out and ready to add to some water, I have had about two big glasses of green tea YUM! I can hear the tv as it's recording my shows that I will watch in a bit while I am folding the clothes and I am thinking about all the things I want to do for Christmas and need to do before Christmas. The list is long y'all I mean really really long!
I am quite excited about some crafts I plan to make, and some other things I am putting into plan. Life is about change right??? I am working on changing things! It takes 21 days to break a habit....let's see if I can do it!
I have got to get off here...I am just rambling anyway!
See y'all!
Francine
So I am sitting in my office "THINKING" yes be scared be very scared! I have my emergen c packet out and ready to add to some water, I have had about two big glasses of green tea YUM! I can hear the tv as it's recording my shows that I will watch in a bit while I am folding the clothes and I am thinking about all the things I want to do for Christmas and need to do before Christmas. The list is long y'all I mean really really long!
I am quite excited about some crafts I plan to make, and some other things I am putting into plan. Life is about change right??? I am working on changing things! It takes 21 days to break a habit....let's see if I can do it!
I have got to get off here...I am just rambling anyway!
See y'all!
Francine
Catching up from monday and tuesday!
Hey y'all! Yesterday and this past weekend I was horribly sick so tonight I am playing catch up!
First let me post my menu for the week.
Monday night we had Parmesan crusted chicken, garlic broccoli and whole wheat mac and cheese.
Tuesday- baked buffalo chicken sandwiches
Wed-Four cheese baked Penne with salad
Thur-Fiery chicken burgers and sweet potato fries
Friday- Grilled chicken
Sat-chicken and pineapple kabobs
Sunday-chicken tacos
Monday- Chicken noodles soup
Tuesday-leftovers
Wed-leftovers
Thursday-unsure
I know not the greatest menu but please forgive me ....I have been so sick i decided to go as easy as possible!
Now for the thought for the week and the verse for the week.
Thought for the week:
God has what we need. It is up to us to decide whether or not we're going to let the worst of us get the best of us. ---Beth Moore (so long insecurity)
Verse:
Psalm 20:1
May the Lord answer you when you are in trouble, may the God of Jacob make you secure! (NET version)
KJV says : The Lord hear thee in the day of trouble; the name of God of Jacob defend thee.
OK y'all there you go!
I am going back to lay down..
Love and hugs,
Francine
First let me post my menu for the week.
Monday night we had Parmesan crusted chicken, garlic broccoli and whole wheat mac and cheese.
Tuesday- baked buffalo chicken sandwiches
Wed-Four cheese baked Penne with salad
Thur-Fiery chicken burgers and sweet potato fries
Friday- Grilled chicken
Sat-chicken and pineapple kabobs
Sunday-chicken tacos
Monday- Chicken noodles soup
Tuesday-leftovers
Wed-leftovers
Thursday-unsure
I know not the greatest menu but please forgive me ....I have been so sick i decided to go as easy as possible!
Now for the thought for the week and the verse for the week.
Thought for the week:
God has what we need. It is up to us to decide whether or not we're going to let the worst of us get the best of us. ---Beth Moore (so long insecurity)
Verse:
Psalm 20:1
May the Lord answer you when you are in trouble, may the God of Jacob make you secure! (NET version)
KJV says : The Lord hear thee in the day of trouble; the name of God of Jacob defend thee.
OK y'all there you go!
I am going back to lay down..
Love and hugs,
Francine
Thursday, July 26, 2012
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
chad
I can think of thousands of things to blog about BUT tonight I decided to talk about my fiance! Whenever somebody falls in love you always hear "he is the greatest thing ever" or "the love of my life" or such as that. I will save you those little sappy sayings but I will say this. In all my life and of all the men that have passed through my life none can compare to this man right here! I am blessed that God saw fit to put him in my life and give me a reason to pick myself up and move on! I do not always understand why things happen the way they do BUT I am assured that he DOES always have a plan!
I so loved his plan this time! I so love this man!
Love and Hugs,
Francine
Quote of the week and verse of the week!
Quote:
"Life is rough. It's also beautiful, but if we can't get some respite( rest or brief break) from its cruelty, we will never have the healthy vision to savor its tender beauty" ..........Beth Moore From the book "So long insecurity"
Verse:
Isaiah 46: 4
Even when you are old, I will be the same. Even when your hair turned gray, I will take care of you. I made you and will take care of you. I will carry you and save you.
what a blessing!!!
Love and hugs,
Francine
"Life is rough. It's also beautiful, but if we can't get some respite( rest or brief break) from its cruelty, we will never have the healthy vision to savor its tender beauty" ..........Beth Moore From the book "So long insecurity"
Verse:
Isaiah 46: 4
Even when you are old, I will be the same. Even when your hair turned gray, I will take care of you. I made you and will take care of you. I will carry you and save you.
what a blessing!!!
Love and hugs,
Francine
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Link to recipes from last night!
Here is the link the recipes from last night's menu! i hope you enjoy them and enjoy reading that blog as well!
http://ahealthyscoop.blogspot.com/
Love and hugs,
Francine
Monday, July 23, 2012
I am back for GOOD this time :0)
Hey everyone! Happy Monday! I hope you all had a great weekend and a great start to your work week. I want to apologize in advance as I have been missing in action for a while. Life, that is all I can say is just that LIFE.....As ashamed as I am I just have been to caught up in it to stop and write BUT I really enjoy sharing my thoughts with those few who read it so I decided to come back and start back at it..I have a lot to blog about and a lot to just record so I don't forget things later down the road. So in order to do that I kind came up with a schedule for my blog just a little "theme" per say that I can kinda stick to and on certain days know and prepare a little in advance for what I will be sharing. This is what I am thinking...
Monday's-Will be my weekly menu schedule with a link to my health blog for any recipes I plan to use. Other than that just free rambling which I do SO WELL! LOL
Tuesday- will be my quote of the week and verse of the week. I love this idea as it will help me to dive deeper in God's word and really search for things to share with you. I am NOT taking the easy way out on this I am going to be searching as I am doing my bible study.
Wed-no plans as of now just whatever crosses my mind....that could be scary folks..just warning you!
Thursday-Photo/no words of the day...other than a brief explanation of the photo.
Friday-I will be talking about another blog that has touched me in some way and sharing there link with you so you can check them out as well as just sharing.
Saturday-No plans open
Sunday- will be a recap of the weekend
So that is what I am thinking..I believe this will help me because it kinda gives me a lean towards something and helps me round up my thoughts so I actually know what I am talking about. HAHAH! Organization.
You know I thought "Capricorns" were suppose to be organized and stubborn I totally get the stubborn but what the heck????? Where did my organization go lately? All I have to say is whoever stole it needs to give it back NOW! Just sayin.....
So this is Mondays and here is my Weekly menu:
Monday- Shrimp Greek salad (chad is off this is subject to change)
Tuesday- Chicken Breast Stuffed Parmesan and spinach chicken.
Wed- Greek baked shrimp with feta
Thursday- Herb marinated chicken and roasted vegetables
Friday- Greek Burgers
***I just noticed a theme here Greek...oh well we are on the Sonoma Diet so we eat a lot of foods like that***
The link for these recipes will be posted tomorrow as I need to go over there after this and do some work on that blog but I will get it done tonight. You have my word.
OK, now onto another subject I found this really neat thing on Pinterest YES I AM AN ADDICT...anyone else ?? Come on you know you love that site.... Anyway I wanted to share it simply because I thought just as I received a lot from it many of you might as well.
Stressed????
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, Thoughts of Peace, and NOT of EVIL,To give you an expected end.
Proverbs 29:11
A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise man keepeth it till afterwards.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths.
Ephesians 4:26
Be ye angry and sin not, let not the sun go down upon your wrath.
Ephesians 4:31-32
Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamor, and evil speaking, be pt away from you, with all malice:
And be ye kind one to another, tender hearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.
Matthew 6:19-21
Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal.But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt and where thieves do not break through nor steal. For where your treasure is there will your heart be also.
Romans 8:28
For we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.
Hebrews 12:6
For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he recieveth.
Ok so there is you some food for thought... Hope you all have a blessed night!
Love and hugs
Francine
Monday's-Will be my weekly menu schedule with a link to my health blog for any recipes I plan to use. Other than that just free rambling which I do SO WELL! LOL
Tuesday- will be my quote of the week and verse of the week. I love this idea as it will help me to dive deeper in God's word and really search for things to share with you. I am NOT taking the easy way out on this I am going to be searching as I am doing my bible study.
Wed-no plans as of now just whatever crosses my mind....that could be scary folks..just warning you!
Thursday-Photo/no words of the day...other than a brief explanation of the photo.
Friday-I will be talking about another blog that has touched me in some way and sharing there link with you so you can check them out as well as just sharing.
Saturday-No plans open
Sunday- will be a recap of the weekend
So that is what I am thinking..I believe this will help me because it kinda gives me a lean towards something and helps me round up my thoughts so I actually know what I am talking about. HAHAH! Organization.
You know I thought "Capricorns" were suppose to be organized and stubborn I totally get the stubborn but what the heck????? Where did my organization go lately? All I have to say is whoever stole it needs to give it back NOW! Just sayin.....
So this is Mondays and here is my Weekly menu:
Monday- Shrimp Greek salad (chad is off this is subject to change)
Tuesday- Chicken Breast Stuffed Parmesan and spinach chicken.
Wed- Greek baked shrimp with feta
Thursday- Herb marinated chicken and roasted vegetables
Friday- Greek Burgers
***I just noticed a theme here Greek...oh well we are on the Sonoma Diet so we eat a lot of foods like that***
The link for these recipes will be posted tomorrow as I need to go over there after this and do some work on that blog but I will get it done tonight. You have my word.
OK, now onto another subject I found this really neat thing on Pinterest YES I AM AN ADDICT...anyone else ?? Come on you know you love that site.... Anyway I wanted to share it simply because I thought just as I received a lot from it many of you might as well.
Stressed????
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, Thoughts of Peace, and NOT of EVIL,To give you an expected end.
Proverbs 29:11
A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise man keepeth it till afterwards.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths.
Ephesians 4:26
Be ye angry and sin not, let not the sun go down upon your wrath.
Ephesians 4:31-32
Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamor, and evil speaking, be pt away from you, with all malice:
And be ye kind one to another, tender hearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you.
Matthew 6:19-21
Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal.But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt and where thieves do not break through nor steal. For where your treasure is there will your heart be also.
Romans 8:28
For we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose.
Hebrews 12:6
For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he recieveth.
Ok so there is you some food for thought... Hope you all have a blessed night!
Love and hugs
Francine
Friday, May 4, 2012
A story.......IMPORTANT!
There is a story I would like to share in hopes that perhaps ONE GIRL will read it and take it to heart and not allow it to happen to them...It's not a story I have shared with many and it is not a story I am proud of but none the less it is a story.
There was a girl I knew she had very very low self-esteem, she had no confidence and she little faith in her self. She didn't think she would ever get married, she didn't think she deserved a man, she didn't think she was beautiful enough to have anyone in her life, to have kids, to have any of those dreams that she sooo greatly desired! One day this girl met a guy..he was cute, funny and smart he said sweet things to her, he took he out to dinner and he "romanced" her. She thought "he hung the moon" she was head over hills in love.....and she THOUGHT he was too. However the more she got to know him the more she noticed little things, one being his nonacceptance of what she physically looked like. All through there relationship he was constantly demeaning her, making her feel as if she was unworthy and should feel like she was lucky to have him. He lied to her constantly and blatantly did so. He would make her look like a fool to those who loved her but to her face act as if he "loved" her as much as she loved him. He often told her she MUST have makeup on because she was NOT pretty enough without make-up. She would hear all the time how she wasn't skinny enough, that good old saying "if you really love me than you would do ..........", she was asked to do things that were just beyond crazy against EVERYTHING she believed in. He knew she felt like she could do no better so he playing with her emotions, he verbally abused her, he physically abused her and he almost literally destroyed her.
I won't go into the details and I won't say who the person is none of that matters what does matter is realizing WHY it happened other than the fact that he is just pure evil, it happened because SHE did not have any faith in herself, man after man in her life had let her down, had hurt her in some way and she was at the bottom of the barrel in trying to pick herself up....she had NO self-esteem and he knew it, she was terrified he would leave her and he knew it, she was scared she would grow old alone and he knew it. He used all of that against her and almost destroyed her...eventually he was caught in his affairs and she finally left him. She walked away and it hurt it a lot but with the love of family and friends and more than anything GOD she was able to pull herself together and eventually move on. God,life and time heal all wounds!
She looks back on that time in her life and it saddens her that she had got so low and so good at hiding things from her family that they really had no clue what was going on. God has blessed her and brought someone new in her life and she is finally experiencing what REAL love is like. She is blessed now and getting stronger every day. However she still thinks about that time and what she would tell her nieces or any girl or woman that is being controlled,abused or mistreated by a man and this is what she came up with:
1) You are precious in the sight of the lord ...You are a princess and you should be treated as so.
2) You deserve respect, demand it, expect it!
3) Never allow anyone to control how you feel about yourself! Look in the mirror remind yourself daily that you are wonderful,amazing, out of this world and you deserve only the best!
4) If you are in a relationship where you are being physically abused,emotionally abused or verbally abused realize it WILL NOT STOP!!! They are not going to quit and eventually it could get very very ugly.
5) Also realize you did not cause him to do it and it is not your fault DO NOT ACCEPT BLAME!
6) Seek help! PLEASE seek help! Confide in someone and be brave..and know that even though you may feel as though your life is falling into a thousand pieces YOU WILL BE OK!
7) Take time to heal, surround yourself with good people and God and move forward. KNOW there are GOOD MEN out there!
Love should never ever be about bruises, low self-esteem, making the person you love do things they do not want to do just to please you. Love should never cause fear and pain in such a horrible way THAT IS NOT LOVE!
Love is a wonderful thing when done in the right way with a man/woman God has given you. Love should make you feel happy and special (granted you will have fights some times but they should never lead to you being hit) You are special and deserve to be loved the right way!
I know all this is true because this story was about me and just a tad of what I have been through and although i hate what I experienced and I don't talk about it often I also know that I will find a way to take something from it and move forward. I am strong there is NO doubting that, I am important to GOD and I do matter. I will never ever allow another person to hit me or abuse me in anyway! I have a voice i have an opinion and I will be heard!
So in the end the abuse did not win HE did not win I DID and for that I hold my head up and I am proud!
Now I am happy to say I have a man in my life that GOD brought me , I am engaged to be married and I am excited about life and I know I never ever again have to worry about a man hitting me or abusing me in any way!
I have worried about what type of example I would set for my nieces because I want them to be proud of me. I feel like I have shown them that being a woman does not mean you coward down it means you stand strong, proud and you fight for what you believe in. I know that in the future they will all three start dating and I will pray that they will always remember what I went through and never ever go through it themselves. If I can stop just one girl, if I can protect Brooklyn, Callie and Taylor from ever being treated this way by being honest with them and open about what happened to me than I know I have made something really good come out of all that bad. That is more than enough for me!
I am survivor and I am damn proud of it!
There was a girl I knew she had very very low self-esteem, she had no confidence and she little faith in her self. She didn't think she would ever get married, she didn't think she deserved a man, she didn't think she was beautiful enough to have anyone in her life, to have kids, to have any of those dreams that she sooo greatly desired! One day this girl met a guy..he was cute, funny and smart he said sweet things to her, he took he out to dinner and he "romanced" her. She thought "he hung the moon" she was head over hills in love.....and she THOUGHT he was too. However the more she got to know him the more she noticed little things, one being his nonacceptance of what she physically looked like. All through there relationship he was constantly demeaning her, making her feel as if she was unworthy and should feel like she was lucky to have him. He lied to her constantly and blatantly did so. He would make her look like a fool to those who loved her but to her face act as if he "loved" her as much as she loved him. He often told her she MUST have makeup on because she was NOT pretty enough without make-up. She would hear all the time how she wasn't skinny enough, that good old saying "if you really love me than you would do ..........", she was asked to do things that were just beyond crazy against EVERYTHING she believed in. He knew she felt like she could do no better so he playing with her emotions, he verbally abused her, he physically abused her and he almost literally destroyed her.
I won't go into the details and I won't say who the person is none of that matters what does matter is realizing WHY it happened other than the fact that he is just pure evil, it happened because SHE did not have any faith in herself, man after man in her life had let her down, had hurt her in some way and she was at the bottom of the barrel in trying to pick herself up....she had NO self-esteem and he knew it, she was terrified he would leave her and he knew it, she was scared she would grow old alone and he knew it. He used all of that against her and almost destroyed her...eventually he was caught in his affairs and she finally left him. She walked away and it hurt it a lot but with the love of family and friends and more than anything GOD she was able to pull herself together and eventually move on. God,life and time heal all wounds!
She looks back on that time in her life and it saddens her that she had got so low and so good at hiding things from her family that they really had no clue what was going on. God has blessed her and brought someone new in her life and she is finally experiencing what REAL love is like. She is blessed now and getting stronger every day. However she still thinks about that time and what she would tell her nieces or any girl or woman that is being controlled,abused or mistreated by a man and this is what she came up with:
1) You are precious in the sight of the lord ...You are a princess and you should be treated as so.
2) You deserve respect, demand it, expect it!
3) Never allow anyone to control how you feel about yourself! Look in the mirror remind yourself daily that you are wonderful,amazing, out of this world and you deserve only the best!
4) If you are in a relationship where you are being physically abused,emotionally abused or verbally abused realize it WILL NOT STOP!!! They are not going to quit and eventually it could get very very ugly.
5) Also realize you did not cause him to do it and it is not your fault DO NOT ACCEPT BLAME!
6) Seek help! PLEASE seek help! Confide in someone and be brave..and know that even though you may feel as though your life is falling into a thousand pieces YOU WILL BE OK!
7) Take time to heal, surround yourself with good people and God and move forward. KNOW there are GOOD MEN out there!
Love should never ever be about bruises, low self-esteem, making the person you love do things they do not want to do just to please you. Love should never cause fear and pain in such a horrible way THAT IS NOT LOVE!
Love is a wonderful thing when done in the right way with a man/woman God has given you. Love should make you feel happy and special (granted you will have fights some times but they should never lead to you being hit) You are special and deserve to be loved the right way!
I know all this is true because this story was about me and just a tad of what I have been through and although i hate what I experienced and I don't talk about it often I also know that I will find a way to take something from it and move forward. I am strong there is NO doubting that, I am important to GOD and I do matter. I will never ever allow another person to hit me or abuse me in anyway! I have a voice i have an opinion and I will be heard!
So in the end the abuse did not win HE did not win I DID and for that I hold my head up and I am proud!
Now I am happy to say I have a man in my life that GOD brought me , I am engaged to be married and I am excited about life and I know I never ever again have to worry about a man hitting me or abusing me in any way!
I have worried about what type of example I would set for my nieces because I want them to be proud of me. I feel like I have shown them that being a woman does not mean you coward down it means you stand strong, proud and you fight for what you believe in. I know that in the future they will all three start dating and I will pray that they will always remember what I went through and never ever go through it themselves. If I can stop just one girl, if I can protect Brooklyn, Callie and Taylor from ever being treated this way by being honest with them and open about what happened to me than I know I have made something really good come out of all that bad. That is more than enough for me!
I am survivor and I am damn proud of it!
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Matthew William Lee--The little boy that changed everything!
I have a story to share with you about a young man that came into my life and literally changed everything about my life. He was a prayed for blessing a perfect distraction in all our crazy lives.. My sweet sister wasn't sure when or if she would ever get pregnant and yet I will always remember the pooh shoes that told me " I was going to be an AUNT" I will never forget jumping up and down, screaming and hollering and literally just being soo excited! When Matthew was born he came at a time in my life when I needed a NEW focus and Matthew was that focus...He changed EVERYTHING!!!
Since than Matthew has filled my life with so much laughter, so much joy and such and awesome honour to be called HIS AUNT! Matthew for as long as I can remember has been the young man with the "beyond wild imagination" the " amazing knowledge of things I would never think to know so much about" the "uncanny ability to make me laugh when NOBODY else could" he had my heart in the palm of his hands and he still does. I have watched him grow from a laughing, silly, fun loving, kind little boy to this amazing man that just blows my mind every time I think about him. Matthew is wise beyond his years.....he has such a way of seeing things... of looking beyond someones faults and seeing the good in them, he forgives and he loves with all that is in him. He protects, he protects me and I saw that when my ex hurt me so badly Matthew protected me i didn't realize at the time how much until this past summer when I stayed in Florida with them..Matthew was quiet and didn't say much at first BUT than he would start talking to me about all kinds of things and he would say things about wanting to see me happy.. Matthew i knew would be a tough cookie for another man to ever be his uncle because he was so hurt by my ex. I worried when Chad went to Florida with me for my grannies funeral, I worried how Matthew would take to him and I prayed that Matthew would see what I saw. He did, he saw the good side and he let me know in his own way he approved. In all my life, in all I have done I pray that I am remembered the most for being a good AUNT...
I pray Matthew always knows how very much I love him and how very very proud of him I am. Sometimes I think about this past summer and the" missiles"lol that often just barley missed my head...I also remember the "shows" Matthew and I watched together..the laughs that sometimes nobody else understood but us. The talks and closeness that we gained. I wouldn't trade anything in this world for that time because Matthew and I bonded again.
He is somebody that I will forever be proud of , forever admire and forever respect. Even as a young man he already deserves my respect and leaves me speechless when I stop and think of the wisdom he holds. He was my first nephew, the first all nighters when i spent the night to help out, my first nephew b-day parties, my first aunt things, my first heart strings pulled, my first everything as an Aunt and he will always and forever have a huge part of my heart! Matthew I love you so very much! I am so proud of everything you stand for and everything you are! I pray that as your Aunt I can make you proud of me and that you will NEVER ever doubt my love for you. You are sooo important to my life and I will always hold you close to my heart! I hope you have an amazing birthday! I will be home soon to see you ......I love you bubby always and forever!
Aunt.CineCine
Since than Matthew has filled my life with so much laughter, so much joy and such and awesome honour to be called HIS AUNT! Matthew for as long as I can remember has been the young man with the "beyond wild imagination" the " amazing knowledge of things I would never think to know so much about" the "uncanny ability to make me laugh when NOBODY else could" he had my heart in the palm of his hands and he still does. I have watched him grow from a laughing, silly, fun loving, kind little boy to this amazing man that just blows my mind every time I think about him. Matthew is wise beyond his years.....he has such a way of seeing things... of looking beyond someones faults and seeing the good in them, he forgives and he loves with all that is in him. He protects, he protects me and I saw that when my ex hurt me so badly Matthew protected me i didn't realize at the time how much until this past summer when I stayed in Florida with them..Matthew was quiet and didn't say much at first BUT than he would start talking to me about all kinds of things and he would say things about wanting to see me happy.. Matthew i knew would be a tough cookie for another man to ever be his uncle because he was so hurt by my ex. I worried when Chad went to Florida with me for my grannies funeral, I worried how Matthew would take to him and I prayed that Matthew would see what I saw. He did, he saw the good side and he let me know in his own way he approved. In all my life, in all I have done I pray that I am remembered the most for being a good AUNT...
I pray Matthew always knows how very much I love him and how very very proud of him I am. Sometimes I think about this past summer and the" missiles"lol that often just barley missed my head...I also remember the "shows" Matthew and I watched together..the laughs that sometimes nobody else understood but us. The talks and closeness that we gained. I wouldn't trade anything in this world for that time because Matthew and I bonded again.
He is somebody that I will forever be proud of , forever admire and forever respect. Even as a young man he already deserves my respect and leaves me speechless when I stop and think of the wisdom he holds. He was my first nephew, the first all nighters when i spent the night to help out, my first nephew b-day parties, my first aunt things, my first heart strings pulled, my first everything as an Aunt and he will always and forever have a huge part of my heart! Matthew I love you so very much! I am so proud of everything you stand for and everything you are! I pray that as your Aunt I can make you proud of me and that you will NEVER ever doubt my love for you. You are sooo important to my life and I will always hold you close to my heart! I hope you have an amazing birthday! I will be home soon to see you ......I love you bubby always and forever!
Aunt.CineCine
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